So Beautifully Insecure
Hi I am Jennbunny17 also known as So Beautifully Insecure.
I decided to start this blog because it would be absurd to believe that I am the only young lady in the world who has been through a bad relationship, I am not the only one who has been hurt yet stayed and I know I am not the only one who was encompassed with a desire to “get even," nor am I the only young lady who was able to get even, but perhps I maybe one of the few that is willingly open to share her story with the world. This blog will be updated three times a week 1 day will be completely devoted to telling my story of heartbreak and my path towards getting even, day 2 will be devoted to telling you how I currently feel and what is happening in my life, and finally day 3 will be a mixture of both and if I am lucky enough to receive feedback it is when I will respond to feedback from you.
Now lets divulge into this name So Beautifully Insecure
The word “so” can either be used as an adverb or a conjunction but for the sake of this blog it is an adverb. So is meant to intensify the verb following it, here is an example
you could say I am glad you came or you could say I am so glad you came. So intensifies or exaggerates the meaning of the verb that follows it.
Beautifully - another adverb describes the verb usually before it. example
She danced beautifully. Beautifully is a form of Beautiful, an adjective, defined as excellent or wonderful
Finally there is “insecure” an adjective that has multiple meanings. As the blog continues many of these meanings will shift from one to another
- Not sure or certain; doubtful
- Inadequately guarded or protected; unsafe
- Not firm or fixed; unsteady
- Lacking Stability; troubled
- Lacking self-confidence; plagued by anxiety
If you have not noticed yet, all of these words placed together would be one big grammatical error... and I dislike grammatical errors, however; for the sake of this blog and the way SBI will be defined an error will have to do. Three words conjugated in such a way that none of it makes sense, yet it defines a reality that so many people live.
My smile is persuasive, my eyes are seductive I stand a short 5’10, with curves of a goddessI am overweight but I love my body and I tell myself that I am pretty everyday.. You could call me conceited, I prefer the confidence label instead. I walk tall, command attention wherever I go, I am ambitious, outspoken, outgoing, friendly, polite and flirtatious. I posses personality charcteristics that the shy girl longs for, and I am envious of hers. Sometimes I don’t want to be seen, sometimes I want to blend, but I can’t. I’m not sure if you noticed but I said that I tell myself that I am pretty everyday, not beautiful. As much as I want to say that I am, I can’t. I know I am sexy, seductive, exotic, hot... or whatever else you’d like to define it as... but not beautiful. There is just something about the word beautiful that doesn’t fit with me. Beauty defined in America... I don’t fit that description. Perhaps I don’t know what beauty is; “beauty is in the eye of the beholder.”
How do I know if the object of my gazes are beautiful, excellent or wonderful. Beauty, what is it? How can I attain it.?
It is almost midnight I will continue Wednesday.
Ciao,
Jennbunny
