Father's Day

So, I dont know why I've chosen to title this entry Father's Day... because it has nothing to do with my Dad SO WHATEVER. Any who... I have come to the realization that I have lost my own game. I was in a crap ass relationship a while back that singed my heart severely The one guy I loved turned my life upside down and from that day forward I altered my idea of how to "handle" men in my life. After I decided to leave that loser alone, I adapted this attitude of all men cheat all men are liars, dogs etc... you know typical women scorned stuff... but something happened, I changed. I became this cold young lady that didn't attach or if I felt as if an attachment to a man was approaching then I would quickly cut it off, move on and put them in their place. In an essence I began to treat young men the way they treated me, I played a mind game, pretended to care and then dropped them like a bad habit... never really mattered because I was and still am convinced that these guys only wanted me for my body. Some pretended to give a damn but I am sure it was all a front, they had to have been baffled by my actions... how could a sweet and innocent young lady walk away like "whatever dude, you will be replaced?" IDK how I did it but I did. 

I denied myself the luxury ... I'll get to the luxury later... it super late and I have a long day ahead of me. 

So much to say but my mind can't condense it all...